"Okay," says Shen Yuan. "Um. Thanks. And--I kind of think. Avoiding thinking about how I didn't like it. Made me fixate on--how attractive his features are or whatever. So I could think about it as a good thing, instead of." She swallows. "Instead of this thing that neither of us like, but neither of us can change, I wanted there to be--a benefit to being in that form. But it really doesn't matter to you, and I shouldn't have insisted it should. I'm sorry."