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[closed post] drastic measures
Jun. 17th, 2024 09:25 amLuo Binghe has been forced to remember how much harder everything was before he met Shen Yuan. Even with his lover by his side, being Luo Binghe was hard to bear. Any small hurt tends to stick and last within him, a hundred lacerations a day that refuse to heal. But Shen Yuan had a knack for making his anger and pain smaller and softer, burning away the mist with the sunlight of his smile. It was easier to let pain recede when his focus was on Shen Yuan's easy affection.
Now the world is once again a forest of thorns, impossible not to hurt himself against. Even if there is a possibility of having Shen Yuan back, it is not certain, and he is not here now. Luo Binghe has strayed so far, in his time here, from who he once thought himself to be. But it was easy when it was for the sake of Shen Yuan's happiness. Without him, and without any of the certainties Luo Binghe once formed himself around, there's nothing left in him but his tempestuous feelings.
He has been looking for Lan Wangji since learning he could speak to spirits, but Lan Wangji has not made himself easy to find. Least of all for Luo Binghe. In any other circumstance, he would be happy to let the man avoid him forever, their mutually animosity the only point on which they agree. But if Nina cannot find Shen Yuan, perhaps another cultivator can.
Now the world is once again a forest of thorns, impossible not to hurt himself against. Even if there is a possibility of having Shen Yuan back, it is not certain, and he is not here now. Luo Binghe has strayed so far, in his time here, from who he once thought himself to be. But it was easy when it was for the sake of Shen Yuan's happiness. Without him, and without any of the certainties Luo Binghe once formed himself around, there's nothing left in him but his tempestuous feelings.
He has been looking for Lan Wangji since learning he could speak to spirits, but Lan Wangji has not made himself easy to find. Least of all for Luo Binghe. In any other circumstance, he would be happy to let the man avoid him forever, their mutually animosity the only point on which they agree. But if Nina cannot find Shen Yuan, perhaps another cultivator can.
